Feeling Rejected

Sometimes it’s hard not to take the feelings of rejection personally from my oldest son. I know it’s the Asperger’s, but I’m only human, and sometimes it hurts. He was my first baby. The bond between mother and baby was supposed to be magical according to all the books. It’s been anything but. What really hit me the hardest is when my youngest, now three, started saying “I love you too mom,” in response to when I say “I love you,” to him. My oldest son has NEVER said, “I love you,” to either myself or his dad. When we hug him it feels like an obligation on his part. He’s never been one to like kisses. I know he loves us in his own way, and he can’t help that he doesn’t show it outwardly, but sometimes it doesn’t stop the sting.